A memorable day

Today 5th of April

It's a rainy day with a lot of things happened on me...

Everytime when i feel that i'm doing the wrong thing and i said sorry

But they will reply me "No,nevermind,not your's fault"and simply throw a reason to me

I don't know why..why you all wanna reply me like this..is it embarrased or i really dint do wrong??

Just like today...

Someone text me to ask me for fetch her on tomorrow to go City Plaza and i reply her i got work on tomorrow,so cannot fetch her and sorry..

But she reply me "Nevermind,just asking only..."

And today i had took somebody family's time

But i really don't know they wanna go out to have a family gathering

She dint told me also

And i have saying sorry to her when i knew it

But she reply me "Nevermind, is okay...actually we just suddenly said wanna go out...not your's fault,don't blame yourself.."

And the very touched thing to me is what happened in office

I don't know why..why she wanna waste her time talk to me for nearly 2 hours maybe more than that also...

I think from the time i born until now,19 years and 9 months old

Never have someone sitting infront of me, giving me advice, try to explain the situation, encourage me and console me...

But for today..yes!!! She is the only one do all the things to me...

I really don't know how to expressed my feelings...

It contains touched,warm and loved..

Ya...I know i'm sorry to her because i very persistent that time(actually not only that time) but she still keep giving advice and console me...

I don't know what can i do and have lost my ways,lost of control,lost anything...

And she is the only one who told me she will show me the ways and help me

Even just now in the toilet she also din't leave me alone..she waiting for me and she said she scared i will doing stupid thing in the toilet..

And she the only who saw my tears drop...

Ya...i have try to bear it but cannot..it never hear my order to bear and it drops...

Very sorry...i really can't control myself that time,actually i got think to run to toilet that time but i told myself i can't do that because it seem like i din't respect you as you're trying your's best to help me...

Err...actually not only you will change 360 degrees in a short time but me too...

Before a minute we are still talking with the worker in office and the environment in the office that time is full of our laughing but after a minute our situation like an ice,very cold,very stiff...

I had forgot why we will change topic and talk on that case

And very funny is after finished on that topic,we changed to another topic that about hair-cutting and consult doctor...

It's funny right???

From happy to sad then turn to happy again...

Whatever la...

Thinking back,in this 2 years,you're the one who stand beside me and console me when my mood is down...

Not only you,even my old best friend also help me a lot.....

Except sorry and thanks i don't know what can i said to both of you already...

Honestly,i'm scared will lost our friendship,lost you all..

I'm glad to have you all in my life...

Hope our friendship will last longer and won't lost contacts!!