朋友

朋友就是
當你開心時、陪你一同笑

朋友就是
當你難過時、逗你笑

朋友就是
當你流淚時、肩膀給你靠

朋友就是
當你跌倒時、第一個先笑
然後拉你一把,問你有沒有受傷

朋友就是
就算沉默不說話、也不覺得尷尬

朋友就是
互開玩笑、永遠不會生氣
因為他懂你的底限在哪裡


那现在的我们还算是朋友吗？？

QUOTES

• Life is too short to eat vanilla ice cream and dance with boring men. --Anonymous
  
• Adults are always asking children what they want to be when they grow up because they're looking for ideas. --Paula Poundstone
  
• What is freedom of expression? Without the freedom to offend, it ceases to exist. --Salmon Rushdie
  
• I'm free of hypochondria although I've got everything else. --Keith Richards
  
• I never panic when I get lost. I just change where it is I want to go. --Rita Rudner
  
• If I don't ask "Why me?" after my victories, I cannot ask "Why me?" after my setbacks and disasters. --Arthur Ashe
  
• Winning may not be everything but losing has little to recommend it. --Senator Dianne Feinstein
  
• No snowflake in an Avalanche ever feels responsible. --Stanislaw Jerzy Lec
• Have you ever noticed that when people use the expression "I have to say", what follows usually needn't be said? --Richard Russo
  
• If you think you have it tough, read history books then. --Bill Maher
  
• A superior pilot uses his superior judgement to avoid situations that require the use of his superior skill. --Aviation Proverb
  
• Marriage is very difficult. It's like a 5000-piece jigsaw puzzle, all sky. --Cathy Ladman
  
• Put yourself in their shoes before you decide on the best way to take their shirts. --David Sklansky
  
• The first rule of holes: When you're in one, stop digging. --Molly Ivins
  
• If you have the choice between humble and cocky, go with cocky. There's always time to be humble later, once you've been proven horrendously, irrevocably wrong. --Kinky Friedman
  
• The test of a book's quality is not if it reflects my life, but if it reflect yours. --E.L. Doctorow  

BUTTERFLIES

Butterflies!
As a baby;
a caterpillar.
Ugly!
Creepy crawly!
Much hated by garden lovers!
Much loved by birds.
You're food; a delicacy!

Then,from the cocoon.
Emerges
A beauty!
Butterflies!
So colourful!
So beautiful!
So magnificient!
Butterflies!
An important link in a garden ecosystem.
As an agent of pollination!

Butterflies!
My beloved!
When you flutter around freely,
it shows a healthy and vibrant environment.
A world without pollution!

STUPID!! LAZY!! USELESS!!

Work work work!!!
Haih...
Beside work,there is nothing in our life??
Why everyone asking me the same questions??
I had heard it after my exam until now!!!
It's nearly 3 month....
Ya...is 3 month!!!!!!!
Even during chinese new year, you all also asked me why i dint go for work since i have nothing to do after exam..
Why you all want ask me  those thing during the happiness time??
Do you all think work is the only thing that i can do??
Why cannot give me relax after exam????

Why??? Why???

Ya...i have sitting whole day in my dad's shop after my STPM exam..
Everyday reading newspaper,reading novel,watching movies,online,facebook and so on...
I'm too freeeee........

I'm JOBLESSSSS....
I'm not no go for find the job,ok??
I had go to interview also,just the boss don't want hire me,what can i do??
Can i BEAT him??KILL him??
It's impossible right

So what for you all asking so many question???
Maybe you all think that i'm not a good girl,not a good daughter of my parents
I don't mind it...
If you all think that you're right then i can't say anything..
I can't controlled your's mouth,your's mind...

OK...
I can tell you all that i'm stupid,i'm lazy,i'm useless
SERIOUSLY...
Peoples sit for muet exam only 1 times but i already sit for 3 times..

And the third times don't know can pass or not...
Peoples get the good results in stpm but i'm not the ones..

People english so good and speak fluently but i'm not...
People chinese so good but i'm not..

People so good in sports but i'm not..
People have wider knowledge but i'm not...

SO STUPID RIGHT???
When you all ask how was my result and when my result release..

I will answered you all "I DON'T KNOW!!"
My cousins,my aunts,my brothers asked me have you apply universities
I say "NO" also...
You all asked why don't want apply yet..
I say "I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE"..

Don't feel shocked with this answer...
Just i don't know where can i go for studies,what course can i take..
I have no idea on it

My mind was blank...

Sometimes I'm wondering why everyone want asked me those questions?
Everyone got job but me jobless
It's mean USELESS....

Am I made the wrong decision??

Last week my sem 3 results just release..
I don't know how to say on my results
I'm totally get shocked when I saw it
For me, it's impossible to get suh BAD results..
That night, everyone are posting in facebook
Some of them said:"hardwork had paid,thanks god"
Some said:"satisfied"
But what could I say that time???
I'm speechless when saw that on facebook and quickly switch off my computer..
I'm not dare to tell my parents even my brothers also..
I'm keep thinking and thinking...
How come it became like this...
It's unbelievable...
That time I was thinking of maybe mpm will giving wrong result if checking through sms..
But when I check through internet on the next day
I really cant say anything...
I only can said that
Maybe my hardwork is not enough..
Maybe I'm lazy that time...
I can't blame teachers, can't blame families, can't blame anyone
The only one who can blame is MYSELF...
Well...not only me get such bloody results
I think most of the science stream students unsatisfied with mpm
Now when we're seeing each other
The questions they will ask are "How was your result?"," Have you retake?"
Oh god...
I had heard and answered this many many times already...
One of my friend had ask me "have you retake"
When I told him "NO"..he was saying me Siao Zha Bo...
Why??? Why saying me crazy???
Is it I must retake??
Sometime I don't know whether have made the correct decision or not...
Sometime I was thinking that if I retake can I get the good result?? Is it enough time for me to study?? Can I pay more hardwork on it?? Can I finished study in one month time??
I don't know...
My mind is blank when think of retake...
I really wonder that is it wrong decision I made??

Valentine's Day

Well...
tomorrow is the last day of 2014 chinese new year
But it so coincidence that also valentine's day...
Hahah...
talking about valentine's day everyone sure think of 'COUPLE'
who say only couple can celebrate valentine's day???
who say those who are not couple cannot celebrate valentine's day with family???
Since tomorrow is CHAP GOH MEH most of people that same age with us or older than us will go throw the mandarin lime..
Everyone knows that this is chinese tradition and say that is the way to find a marriage predestined by fate..
Do you all believe it???
For me...
it's just a tradition..
not said that we cant believe on it but sometime is about fate and it need times to cultivate..
Love is a very complicated things...
A blogger said:"there's time we need companion,we need love,we need affection,we need attention but this doesn't mean we want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend for the sake of wanting one."
That's right...
Although sometime we will feel jealous on friends or others who already have partner..
but it does not mean that you will not have your partner...
you will have it in one day...
just we don't know when...
maybe he/she still far away from you...
it need sometime to come to you...
so what for you all so jealous on them and feel sad on yourself??
Is it stay alone not good??
If you're rejected by someone
why not go and chase others??
There's still alot of people waiting for...
age is not a problem if you're really love someone..
In this real life...
we cant compare with others,just be yourself....

Wish all the couples Happy Valentines Day and those who are single Happy Chap Goh Meh...

(Sorry...my english not so good... :-p)

借口

漆黑的一个夜晚
一个人走来走去
心情起伏不定
突然好想结束一切
四周围一片黑暗
仿佛自己活在一个黑暗的世界里
少了小孩的哭声  少了大家的欢笑声  少了家人朋友的陪伴
被凝聚的空气令我彷徨无助
泪干了  心也裂了
自己做了一个决定
因为无法面对
因为无法再承受
因为一些事
我想逃避
而妳说一切都是借口
我不知道那是不是借口
就只想做个了断
忘记一切
只求您让我忘了所有
就算让我停止心跳 停止呼吸 我也愿意

烦！！

在生活上，我们是不是都会遇到困难
不管大人小孩个个都必须面对
有谁可以告诉我她是不曾遇到困难的

虽说现在是农历新年期间
大家都会过得很开心，很愉快
每天在面子书看到的不管是拜年还是聚会的照片
大家的嘴上都会挂着甜蜜的笑容
当然我也是有挂上笑容但并不代表我是很高兴的
嘴上是笑
但心里是很烦闷，很不愉快的
不知你们当中也和我一样呢？

有时
不是我不要睬你
而是因为你所做的一切不得不让我不理睬你
有时
不是我要讨厌你
而是因为你所做的一切不得不让我不讨厌你
有时
不是我不要回应你
而是因为你所问的问题很废
我知道我的脾气很差，很容易发火
有时还会像火山一样，随时爆发
有时我会尽量控制我的脾气，但还是做不到
那你可要知道我是狮子座的人
看清楚哦，是“狮子座”哦!!!
狮子一定很凶的不是吗？

有时候
我真的好想找一个人谈一谈，聊一聊
有时候
我只好一个人躲起来痛哭
有时除了拿枕头出气
我还能做什么呢？
有时最多控制我自己，
但当我控制不了的时候
我还能怎样？？？
有时我只好保持沉默
因为沉默是一个女人最大的哭声

有时候
心里会莫名的难受
却不知道为了什么
有时候
与周围的人说说笑笑
却觉得非常寂寞和孤独
有时候
静静地看着窗外
会觉得自己是个很容易被遗忘的人
有时候
觉得这个世界真的很假，很虚伪
有时候
真想就这样从这个世界上消失!!

很多人都说
当你很烦的时候
可以尝试去听一听歌
可是
最惨的是当听到一些悲伤的歌时
眼泪不受控制的留下来了
所以我告诉我自己
无论受了多少委屈，拥有多少心事
我只会把它憋在心里
不是不想说
只是不知道该怎么说，能和谁说