Wednesday, 30 April 2014

Gathering (29042014)

Actually i want to updated my blog last night but it's quite late when i reached home and i'm feeling tired so i dint update.....
Anyway,yesterday i had fulfill my day...whole day can said is full of sad and joy moment...
During the office hours,actually i'm in the bad mood because my mind was keep think of the things that would happen in the coming day,quite alot of things.. but i have to face it also although for me it's quite challenging :-(
Well,we have a small gathering at tree house coffee..actually our first plan is at the new cafe at pekan cina there if i'm not wrong the cafe named Caffe Diem but when they call to ask they said 30th of april just opening...WHAT????no chance to go again...:-( Nevermind then...they say go Parrot Espresso cafe but the cafe is closed when we reached so we have to change to other place again and after discussion they said wanna go to Tree House coffee...OH MY GOD!!! I was keep quiet and just asking in my heart why they want go there???my heart just broken at there last week!!!

Talk on Tree House,i remembered that my first time going there is last year around june or july...that time actually i was cheated by Ching Ling to go there..err...nono...can't said cheated,actually is she asked me whether i can go there company her.I remembered that day was thursday,she went after math tuition...and that time when she sms me i was doing my PA esaay.I thought maybe her mom go meet her friends and she was alone there and bored while waiting for her mom.So,as a friend i went to there companied her but she told me she was the only girl inside there,her mom not around with and asked me entered the cafe..actually i was a bit curious that time..after meet and chit-chat with her friends,at the end we only realized and know that they was telling us about a billionaire business..Second time i entered that cafe was last friday(25th of april) and again go with Ching Ling...and that day can said was a happy day and sad day..happy is because we won the puzzle competition at there but our heart is still broken because they made our puzzle that had done mess....:-( And yesterday was the third time i stepped in....Oh ya,before i forget,last night they choose the place and the table we played puzzle last week!!!!!! I was asking them why they choose that sad place and they asking me back where you want to sit since there is no other places??? Ok lo....they win already...

The waiter come to take the order and i was full that time so don't want to have any drinks or foods..but one of my friend rejected my reason and he asking me to order and said he want to treat me. Well, i have no choice so i order Jasmine Lemon Green Tea. The funny things is Kawai and Shu Hui (both of them late) get shocked when saw my drink come because i won't order if i go to any coffee house because for me all the things sold at there quite expensive...
                             This is my drink.It quite nice...can have a try if you haven't drink before


                     This is hot milk chocolate that ordered by Kawai..it's quite funny because they give a small pieces of cadboury chocolate separately.Hahah...we all get shock and laughed when they put on table..


This is drinking water....and i just know it's FOC!!!!!!! Look like beer right??? 


Maybe we long time dint meet so we keep chit-chat and  for sure the guys was looking on others table girls.....what to do???some of them are so playful!!! Hahaha... Oh ya,they said i have changed a lot...not so fierce already lo...is that true???HAHAHA...I don't know also...When we are chit-chatting suddenly Kawai gave me see a girl that have same name as me on her facebook..then she asked the guys a question. " Compare shi jie and the girl who looks more pretty?" Most of them said the girl is pretty than me...ya...i know...i also said she is pretty,what to do??I'm look like Boy what...haih...But the most hurting me is my son said:"礼貌上,他比抒洁美!!!" My heart was broken again that time...my son said me ugly.. :'(  Not only one photos we compared,it's more than 5 i think and all of them said they are pretty than me... :-( Then they compare me,Kawai and Shu Hui... Most of them vote for Kawai and Shu Hui also..My sons said:"for me is 礼貌上,Kawai is 坦白上,Shu Hui is 可爱上..."What la....am i look so ugly???Haiz...I think i should try hard and make up myself already,so that the will vote for me next time...hehe... We make jokes and took some photos after that...
Ok...enough already la....i lazy to type already....it's a long story and i don't think i should share it all...
Here are some photos i want to share....

                                                            See....does we look cute???
                          Long time dint meet my dear already..miss him and love him so much....


Shu Hui 扮男,Wei Foong 扮女...
I'm jealous:-(

  Sistarz~~

This is our family photos...there are grandpa,grandma,daddy,mommy,children and grandchildren...
Happy Family!!!
Hope that next time gathering whole class friends will be attend then we can photoshoot a big family!!!
Although the day have been hurt by somebody but it's still happy and wonderful day for me..because i have long time dint saw my dear....Love you so much...<3<3

Monday, 28 April 2014

Finding Forgiveness

Forgiveness is such a hot word right now, and it’s no wonder; it’s such an important part of life. So many times we get caught up in past traumas and events that we get stuck and continuously live in the past. Sometimes we even adopt a victim mentality because we have not forgiven, thinking that the world owes us because of what we have been through in life. If you want to live an empowered life, strong and secure from the inside out, forgiveness is crucial. Think of today as the first day of the rest of your life, let go of the baggage of the past, the negative feelings, the deep-seeded anger, and start anew. If you’re looking to start fresh, and need some seeds of knowledge to get you on your way, contemplate these suggestions below. Forgiveness is a very personal process, but it’s something we all must learn to do to better our lives, community, and world as a whole.

  1. Speak your truth and let it go. If there is still something that needs to be said of a situation that is causing you distress, say it. Be kind with your words, stand in your truth, and then let the rest go. Don’t try and force a result or a response, allow whatever happens to happen. Know that on your end, you have done your part, and it is no longer worth your time to hold on any longer.
  2. Rewrite the past. Our minds are so powerful, so when we have hurtful or harmful things happen to us, the mind goes into overdrive to recreate that event in our minds for years and years. Take some time to go back to this moment, and rewrite it in your mind to just be truth; no emotion. We know that things happen to us to teach us something, find it, and allow your mind to soak that up.
  3. Dissolve your feelings of anger, regret, stress, and angst. If you’re holding onto a grudge because of something or someone in the past, it’s really only harming you in the present. Take your mind out of this negative space and add in positive thoughts. While I’m certainly not saying it’s beneficial to take serious situations lightly, I am suggesting that you have the power to end your suffering from it. Take this matter in your own hands, do the work on your end that needs to be done, and consciously decide to be done!

Saturday, 5 April 2014

A memorable day

Today 5th of April
It's a rainy day with a lot of things happened on me...
Everytime when i feel that i'm doing the wrong thing and i said sorry
But they will reply me "No,nevermind,not your's fault"and simply throw a reason to me
I don't know why..why you all wanna reply me like this..is it embarrased or i really dint do wrong??
Just like today...
Someone text me to ask me for fetch her on tomorrow to go City Plaza and i reply her i got work on tomorrow,so cannot fetch her and sorry..
But she reply me "Nevermind,just asking only..."
And today i had took somebody family's time
But i really don't know they wanna go out to have a family gathering
She dint told me also
And i have saying sorry to her when i knew it
But she reply me "Nevermind, is okay...actually we just suddenly said wanna go out...not your's fault,don't blame yourself.."
And the very touched thing to me is what happened in office
I don't know why..why she wanna waste her time talk to me for nearly 2 hours maybe more than that also...
I think from the time i born until now,19 years and 9 months old
Never have someone sitting infront of me, giving me advice, try to explain the situation, encourage me and console me...
But for today..yes!!! She is the only one do all the things to me...
I really don't know how to expressed my feelings...
It contains touched,warm and loved..
Ya...I know i'm sorry to her because i very persistent that time(actually not only that time) but she still keep giving advice and console me...
I don't know what can i do and have lost my ways,lost of control,lost anything...
And she is the only one who told me she will show me the ways and help me
Even just now in the toilet she also din't leave me alone..she waiting for me and she said she scared i will doing stupid thing in the toilet..
And she the only who saw my tears drop...
Ya...i have try to bear it but cannot..it never hear my order to bear and it drops...
Very sorry...i really can't control myself that time,actually i got think to run to toilet that time but i told myself i can't do that because it seem like i din't respect you as you're trying your's best to help me...
Err...actually not only you will change 360 degrees in a short time but me too...
Before a minute we are still talking with the worker in office and the environment in the office that time is full of our laughing but after a minute our situation like an ice,very cold,very stiff...
I had forgot why we will change topic and talk on that case
And very funny is after finished on that topic,we changed to another topic that about hair-cutting and consult doctor...
It's funny right???
From happy to sad then turn to happy again...
Whatever la...
Thinking back,in this 2 years,you're the one who stand beside me and console me when my mood is down...
Not only you,even my old best friend also help me a lot.....
Except sorry and thanks i don't know what can i said to both of you already...
Honestly,i'm scared will lost our friendship,lost you all..
I'm glad to have you all in my life...
Hope our friendship will last longer and won't lost contacts!!

Friday, 4 April 2014

大海

从那遥远海边慢慢消失的你
本来模糊的脸竟然渐渐清晰
想要说些什么又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心底
茫然走在海边看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功想把每朵浪花记起
想要说声爱你却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤所有流过的泪
我的烦请全部带走

茫然走在海边看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功想把每朵浪花记起
想要说声爱你却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤所有流过的泪
我的烦请全部带走